Author: Rachel Nikolaevna

Friends, do you ever have those moments and days of weakness? Do you have those days where you just feel “off” and don’t understand why those emotions are consuming you mentally and physically?

Personally, I feel that a lot. It wasn’t until reading more of God’s word that I understood it more and was able to embrace those moments and pray about them instead of just staying that draining mentality.

We always have the ability to change how we feel. Now I am not going to say that I myself don’t struggle in my own ways, BUT I do find comfort in my God.

I find comfort in being able to pray to God about the true and honest me. The true and honest me is messy and broken. We ALL are messy and broken in our own ways.

We have to look at that as beautiful. We have to look at our brokenness as beauty. When we turn a new leaf on our perspective, things start to really change within us.

It will become more of a habit to pray during the times of uncertainty and weakness instead of digging deeper into that hole.

We are worthy and we are loved by God. He loves us so much that He wants to hear all of our thoughts, feelings and even anger that comes over us.

He understands all of it. He will bend down and listen to you every single time you reach out for Him.

Have you ever thought that maybe when you start feeling “off” is God knocking on your heart to tell you to come to Him?

He has interesting ways to pull you closer in to Him.

Friends, you NEED God. I don’t care who you are. You will always need your Holy Father.

He knows you in and out. Do not be ashamed of that.

I encourage you to be thankful for that. God knew what He was doing when He created your beautiful self.

I promise you!!!! You have a purpose and a reason to be here on this earth.

Ask God what that is. Rest in His arms and cry out for Him to hold you even tighter when you feel weak in your mind and spirit.

When I say that you will always be ok, I mean that. For God will never give you pain without a purpose behind it.

Even when we have those days where we feel off and insecure and feeling like we just don’t know what’s going on, remember that there can be a purpose for that.

He wants you to reach out to Him.

Friends, I want to be very honest with you for a minute. One thing that I always had a problem with growing up is feeling like I always needed someone with me. A guy in my life to make me feel important. I never embraced myself until I was almost 20.

I needed to take time to figure out what I was searching for in these guys that just weren’t doing the job.

Since I was a little girl I remember always asking myself “could I marry this guy?” If the answer was yes then I would go forward with this person. Regardless of what anyone said around me.

That was my first mistake. I realized that during this time, I was just settling so that I could be with someone.

When I got out of my last relationship in 2015 before meeting my fiancé, I was ready to never be with anyone ever again! I wanted to stay single forever! He made me have the worst feelings about myself. He constantly talked down to me. He made me feel like I wanted to hide under a rock and never come out. I had to completely rebuild my self esteem. I had to start from scratch.

It was such a dark time in life, but I continued to be with this person who was causing me so much pain. “Why Rachel?”

After being disappointed time and time again, I finally was fed up, I drove to the beach, played one of my favorite songs by Third Day called Revelation. I was crying and praying to God, “please help me.” “What should I do?” “Please God, give me the strength to just leave.”

On a side note, another thing I realized during this time in my life was that this person took me further away from the Lord, instead of brining me closer. That should have been my first sign to get out faster, but it wasn’t.

Finally I heard a calm sweet voice in my head say “it’s time to go now.”

There was my Holy Spirit giving me the words I needed. I finally left after a LONG 9 months with this person.

You are probably wondering why I am writing this blog.

Well its because I want to tell all of the woman out there that YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING.

Never ever feel guilty if you feel deep down in your heart and soul that it is time to leave something that is toxic for you. It is okay and God will reward you for that. He rewarded me that’s for sure!

Never ever let a man treat you less than what God says you deserve.

I was by myself for almost 2 years and it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. It was true intimate time with my Holy Father. I learned so much about myself and how God feels of me.

We as woman a lot of times feel like we have to “fix” the guy we are with. That is why we never give up on them because we almost feel responsible for that person. After analyzing myself, I figured out that is exactly what I was doing. I thought I could change this person.

I want you to know that you are not responsible for your significant other. Your partner is responsible for themselves.

I had to learn this the hard way.

Most importantly I learned that God has a man for me. I just had to wait and be patient for Him to reveal that guy to me. God will do the same for you too!

I trusted Him fully to show me this man when the time was right. I was just embracing my time by myself and leaning on God fully.

Sure enough, in Dec of 2017, I met the man of my dreams. I remember coming home that night and peaking my head into my moms room saying “start planning the wedding.” I knew this was a God thing!

Sure enough, he proposed to me in Dec 2018 and now in less than 2 months I will be marrying my best friend. Someone who loves God and leads me in His love.

I am so grateful for the grace and patience the Lord had and has for me in this life.

Everyday learning about who you are is a new day to embrace who God has created you to be.

Remember who you are and stand up for your morals and beliefs.

God will fill in the rest!

Friends, I truly believe that a lot of us struggle with what our purpose is in this crazy life. I was one of these people that struggled with finding mine.

I never felt I had a strong point in life, so I felt like I was sorta just going through the motions.

I realized how empty this made me feel. I felt like I was not benefiting this world in any positive ways. That really did take a toll on me.

So I prayed. I prayed that God would use me as a vessel for His love to others.

I found that I very much did have a purpose after praying and reading God’s truths about me.

He says I am the beautiful one and that He does have plans for me.

I think we often get into our heads and we start believing our self doubt. My advise to you, DO NOT BELIEVE WHAT YOUR FEEL. Believe what God says.

Sometimes our purpose isn’t going to be a specific thing. It’s going to be waking up, realizing to whom you belong to, and praying for Him to direct your path JUST for that day.

Do not get too ahead of yourself.

Don’t think about your end point. Think about the journey that God is going to lead you through.

I have learned that the journey is the most beautiful part of walking with Jesus.

I want you to know that you have a purpose. You always have a purpose when you’re given another day.

Your task for this day could be different from the task that God has for you a week from today.

It makes us continuously go back to God and ask Him, what’s next, Father? Help me to be vulnerable to your ways. Let me live out what you need me to live out.

Help me to speak to the people who need to spoken to.

Help me to inspire those who need inspiration.

I PROMISE if we take our purpose day by day, it will make more sense. Remember, God can use you when you become a vessel to Him.

Hi Friends! It has been a little while since I have posted a blog. Life can be crazy sometimes and it’s hard to just stop and find the time to sit and write.

I have learned a lot about myself in the last 3 years with God. One thing I learned is that writing is actually very stress relieving.

I hated school growing up and it was never quite my thing. I never thought I was any good at writing papers and I always had the worst attitude about school in general.

So in other words, I never thought that I would have started my own blog.

I am so thankful for the places God has led me and also the things He has taught me in the past 3 years.

I have finally took that leap of faith and I quit my full time job to pursue something that has been a desire in my heart for over a month now.

Taking that leap can be so darn scary and it feels like you are on a tight rope.

Striving with God is something that can be nerve wracking but in all actuality, it does not have to be at all.

It should be the most exciting thing of all!

It’s called trusting in His ways and His plans for your life.

I know for me that God never put a desire on my heart that wasn’t something that He actually wanted to complete in me.

SO let me tell you my story. The past month or so I have been wanting to work from home. So I could really dive deep into my ministry and have more time to do so, considering I would basically be my own boss since I would be working from home.

Which means setting my own hours etc. I had this in my mind and I was determined to get it! I wasn’t going to stop until I did. I KNEW and KNOW that God has big plans for my life.

So long story short, I landed the opportunity and it just seemed way too good to be true, you guys. I was over here thinking what is the catch? Is this something God is putting directly into my lap??

I had a lot of thinking to do and also a lot of talking to my love ones as well for their opinions and also support for my future.

I made that a sign that I wanted from God. I wanted for my love ones to be supportive and also excited for this opportunity and not hesitant.

My mom is the first one to be skeptical so I asked God, “if this is something I should pursue, please let me feel a sense of positivity from my mom when I call her.”

Sure enough when I called my mom, she was ecstatic for me! She knew that this is what I have been wanting for a while now and was so happy that something was happening with it.

My fiancé was of course on board because he really always supports me in the things I want to do in life.

Needless to say, God has blessed me beyond measure.

Even then, you are still walking through the unknown. Jesus never leaves you nor forsakes you. So that alone gives me so much comfort. I know that God will never let me fall so hard that I can not get up.

Going forward, I will STRIVE with God into the work that He has for me!

Have you ever felt like God has been directing your life down to the very thoughts and feelings that you have?

One thing that I have learned over the years is there is A REASON FOR EVERYTHING!!!

God doesn’t lay a desire on your heart to tear it down. I encourage you to think about those desires as a blessing! God is working in your life and wants to give you all the desires of your heart and more!

May we lay our life down into Gods hands, for HE is so powerful and will satisfy all your needs.

When we trust God fully in our lives, we have nothing to worry about. I know that may seem easier said than done but it is the God’s honest truth.

What God has intended for your life is beyond your level of comprehension.

Our job is to only trust and have faith that God will will complete His purpose in our lives for His glory!

When we are on the path of goodness in our life, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up – Galatians 6:9

Fight for what is good and hate what is bad. Love without borders and trust with no limits.

God’s love is perfect and everlasting. We can do all things through Him and He will never leave nor forsake us.

God considers you His child! Why would He intend any bad on your life.

He never ever would. He wants what is best for your life and for His kingdom.

Trust where He leads your heart and your desires. There’s reason behind it. He has something big in store for your life.

When a new desire comes to your heart, be excited! It’s truly a beautiful blessing to have God direct your steps.

Hello sweet friends! This morning I woke up and felt so grateful for all that God has done in me, and what He continues to do in me.

As I get older I see more and more how blessed I am and how good I really do have it.

Sometimes in this life it takes everything to look at the positive side instead of the negative and the bad that is going on in your life at the time.

You guys, I understand and I will always be that person to try and point your blessings out instead of your burdens.

Everybody has burdens that come creeping into their lives, but its all about how you handle these burdens.

Do you get all frustrated and feel like there is a target on your back? Or do you look at it as God is working on me and I will get through this with His help.

I think a lot of people fall is in that process. The way you look at a problem.

To God there is no problem that could ever take away His path for you. He is THAT GOOD!

You guys, when we start to look at things with God in mind, that’s a brand new beginning in your life!!! A beautiful beautiful beginning.

When you KNOW in your heart, soul, and mind that God has got you, EVERYTHING CHANGES.

I know how easy it is for the world to get you down and make you feel less than who God says you are! That is evil and that is Satan all day long.

Say yes to a brand new beginning and when a burden hits you, look at it in a completely different way! Pray about it and give it fully to the Lord because when you let Him own your life you will have a new sense of purpose.

What is true happiness to you? What does it look like in your eyes? Is it what you own? Is it your family or friends, or even both?

Sometimes it is funny for me to look back on my life and think of all the pointless things I used to hold higher than God. The dumbest of things.

I would find that my next best phone was something I held higher. Even just the little things. I had very bad OCD as a kid and that has always held me back in a sense until now.

I have learned so much through my dog Luna and I truly do think that God put her in my life to help me with my OCD because that took away so much joy that was right in front of me.

I have gotten over so much of my OCD issues here in the past 3 months. Its so incredible and I give all that glory to God and I give Him all the credit. I prayed and prayed to ask God to help me with this because it held me back for so long. I would sit in my room and fixate on one small little scratch on my phone. Guys it was bad.

As time has gone on though, I have learned that nothing in the world can satisfy my heart the way Jesus can. There is a reason for this, though.

God wants us to run to Him to find relationship with Him.

If we found true happiness in worldly things, we wouldn’t need God.

But that is so far from the truth. Our hearts were meant to need God. We were created by God for that reason. Our hearts long for God even in the times when we don’t see it.

It’s those random times when we feel discomfort and all of the sudden start to feel a void. Like something is missing.

That’s God trying to tug on your heart. He is whispering, “run to me” “come be with me and let me satisfy all of your needs.”

Its always a work in progress for me to stop and remember where my true joy comes from but honestly, it just gets easier everyday that I put Him first in my life and pray for Him to take over my life.

I no longer live for myself. I am living for Jesus and Jesus alone.

He died on that cross for me. Must be that He took me very seriously. So now it is time I take Him seriously and live only for Him and spread the amazing news of the gospel to others.

I want other people to find the joy I have found. It is a beautiful thing and something that is completely out of this world. Trust me on this one.