Friends! I am about to be so real with you. So real to the point that I am going to give you raw feelings and struggles that I have been dealing with the past 3 weeks after getting married to the man of my dreams.
These feelings were so strong that it has almost held me back from Jesus. I had so much anger and resentment in my heart.
Which we all know that will get us NOWHERE REAL FAST.
This was something that weighed on me so much and even made me so sad to see myself in this position. Crying to my husband because of being hurt.
He is such a great man to sit and listen to my hurt heart and he was there to hug me and show me the sympathy I needed to heal and process things.
Without getting into too much detail, I will explain just how I felt emotionally and how I feel that it took me from God and His endless love for me.
As I am sure many of you know, losing a friend is never fun. It sucks, and sometimes you just can’t comprehend what even happened for things to take such a turn for the worse.
Finding comfort in the times of feeling betrayed can be very difficult.
I found myself almost wanting to distance myself from God just so I could hold anger and resentment in my heart. Has this ever happened to you?
Like you know God would never want you to feel that way but you needed time to be angry and upset.
Well this was me for the past 3 weeks until I finally had a break through.
In this world today there is so much selfishness and not enough selflessness.
Read that again.
One of the things that I have always tried hard to do was to be a good friend to other people. A trait that I feel came straight from the Lord.
Well sometimes we don’t always get back what we put out. This is something we need to understand.
No matter how good of a friend we are, we can’t expect that back in return.
If we do, we probably will be disappointed in the end.
I look at it this way now, Jesus loved even when He knew His deciple would betray Him. He loved even though He didn’t always get it in return.
Sometimes being the bigger person means swallowing everything we want to say to a person and replacing it with prayers and love for that person.
I do truly believe that God removes people in your life to replace them with better.
We can’t hold onto something that won’t serve us and that is negative for our lives.
We must continue to blossom with or without a person. Sometimes we as people outgrow other people, and that is OK. It took me some time to understand this!
I am going to end it scripture: “If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours. But all these things they will do to you on account of my name, because they do not know him who sent me. If I had not come and spoken to them, they would not have been guilty of sin, but now they have no excuse for their sin (John 15: 18-23)
Wrath is cruel, anger is overwhelming, but who can stand before jealousy? Better is open rebuke than hidden love. Faithful are the wounds of a friend; profuse are the kisses of an enemy. (Proverbs 27:4-6)